I’ve debated whether or not I should say that. As bloggers, we always want to look our best. Pretty outfits. Perfect smiles. Coifed hair. Everything perfect. But the one thing that has always been important to me, is that I’m honest. And while I’d love to appear that I have the perfect life, the truth is, my life isn’t perfect. *Surprise surprise*. I have struggles. I have hardships. I have insecurities, faults, and all the other qualities that makes me imperfectly human. Yep, that’s me!
I’ve been struggling.
As you know, a couple of years ago, my grandmother moved from North Carolina so that we could care for her in her older years. Its been amazing being able to spend time with her, something I wasn’t able to do growing up because of the distance. She and I really bonded during this time, watching repeats of Criminal Minds and Blue Bloods, and filming our weekly youtube series, Tuesdays with Grandma.
So many precious moments we had, that I’m glad I got to share with the rest of you as well. But we’ve had our struggles as well. February of last year, my grandma had a stroke, which we found out accelerated her dementia. From there things changed, read more here.
Earlier this month, after a year long fight (she’s always been stubborn), my grandmother finally laid her head down in eternal rest. Although sad, it was such an honor to be there with her, holding her hand, comforting her, letting her know that we will be ‘okay’, and that she is loved.
Needless to say, with everything going on, I haven’t felt like blogging much lately. I haven’t felt like saying much of anything. Which, again as a blogger, has been killing me. I know you guys deserve better, and I want to keep connected with everyone. But I realize that this is a part of life, and a part of grieving.
While sad, one thing that I find comfort in, is remembering how much my grandma loved my blog. She loved looking at my photos, and being part of my youtube videos. Remembering this, keeps me motivated.
So with that being said, thank you all for your patience, your support, and your prayers. Thank you for understanding that I needed this little break from blogging. And Get Ready, because it’s about to be on and popping with all the ideas and projects I have coming up! Stay tuned!