What’s up March!? We are three months into the new year…can you believe how fast the time is going?
In 2019, one of my goals is to make myself more available to new opportunities. New opportunities in all areas of life: career, friendships, dating.
Emphasis on dating.
In the past, I feel like I closed myself off to these types of opportunities. Simply because I was insecure.
I felt that no one would be interested in me because I was fat. And if they were, they had ulterior motives — any display of interest was one big joke, with me as the punch line.
I’ve done a lot of growing these last couple of years. I’m able to see how my own insecurities may have been the cause of my singleness.
I’m not perfect, I still have a lot of work to do. But, in 2019, I vowed to do things differently, no longer letting my insecurities hold me back from promising opportunities.
So with that being said, when the cute guy at my local store asked me for my number, I gave it to him.
That alone, is a big step for me. Instead of shriveling and panicking, I decided to play the game. I got his number in return.
And I waited. I waited for him to call me, text me, something.
But nothing happened.
Now, I’ve been raised to think that if a man is truly interested in you, he will show it. I still stand by this. But after talking to my dad about “boys and dating”, I’ve also learned that sometimes guys can be nervous too. Sometimes, we ladies have to take the first step.
Instead of waiting endlessly for this guy to call me. Or more likely, assume that he wasn’t interested in me and move on. So, I decided to do something different.
I shot my shot.
I sent him a text instead, letting him know: hey, I’m interested…let’s meet up for coffee, dinner, a movie, whatever.
I took the first step, and here’s what happened: Absolutely NOTHING!
Nothing happened. And it’s okay.
Instead of succumbing to feelings of being unwanted or unworthy, I felt proud.
I felt proud that I did something that once terrified me.
Does this sound crazy? It might be lol, but I felt proud that I did something, that I would have been terrified to do just last year.
And with this, I felt empowered. Empowered to make my own moves, outside of society standards or what other may think about me.
Life is too short not to live.
So that’s exactly what I’ll be doing…
Until Next Time,